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Hey I'm Heather. I go to Tech. I'm from the beautiful city of Austin. I have an amazing boyfriend, Brandon. I'm 21. I have been through a lot but I can get through anything. <3
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I tried deleting my tumblr today…. But it wouldn’t let me. It was the closet thing internet “offing myself”. But, as i just said it wouldn’t. It was almost like, old friend, don’t go… But the truth of the matter this blog…. this blog was created for one purpose and one purpose only. And well, that part of my life is very much over. Now, I really don’t want a part of that life anymore. But there has got to be a reason it will not let me say goodbye. Tumblr is like that friend that you know who you grew up with. You both were close at one point, but as for our friendship, it was tainted from the beginning when my ploy was to use it for a specific not positive reason. Now you and your friend touch base once and a bit and those old past reminiscent times still linger. Like a lifeless dreaded carcass laying out in the sun that you keep wondering about over and over. Until, well it’s like beating a dead horse…. for months; virtually. And quite frankly, I am over this now I know. I want to blot this all out. I am very much happy with the life I started for myself 8 months ago, with a man who has been everything to me. I plan to be a better woman for him. So, this is my intent old friend…. Since you will not let me leave you to die. I will just leave you remain. Like a book waiting to be opened again, full of colorful memories of my darkened past. I do not think or hope to see you again. And I apologize to my small amount of followers who have seen my ups and downs and well., very confused/ distraught posts through this long year of when I started this. If you wish to unfollow, go ahead. My goal is to never come to this ever again.
As for the person who made me start this… Well, have a good life. I do not think it be wise to hangout anymore, which I know you will have zero problem with that. I am no longer angry, sad, mad, regretful, etc. with the way our lives went along with our relationship. I just want us to live separate lives. You will always be a part of me, but I think its for the best to not be close, at all.
Lastly, I love Brandon Alot. Whether he loves me equally as I do, I do not know, but he is my future for how I see it and I want to continue down this path with him.
goodbye old friend.
Affect
I must have a crazy affect on people. We don’t talk for months and then you try to come back into my life. They all try to come back. I have six words for you all.
“No thank you, don’t come back.”
Why did I attract the creepiest people.
Miss me
I really don’t feel like you will miss me at all.
God received an angel today.
Today I met a Heather, from Austin, and I thought about my bestfriend and all that stuff… Ugh. /: then she texted me: “she passed”. I kept my composure until I got home. But now I just feel like a mess. I wish I was home right now instead of in lubbock worrying about finals. :( you will be forever missed. Xoxo
The bath
I got in a bath. I was feeling like a dirty terrible person due to events that occurred. I filled it with soap, as the hot water filled, I put my head on the back of the tub, I looked at my body, I felt my face, what a terrible person I am; terrible I have become. As I was in there I could feel my breathing keeping my buoyancy, every breath I rose, and every exhale I sank. I thought about drowning myself, cutting myself, hurting myself physically for what I have done. I started to cry, I cried and cried out to god, please help me. Please. I won’t do it again. Show me the way. I am depressed and want you to wash away all the pain. I stopped crying and sat up. I looked down and the soap formed into the shape of a serpents head slithering to my wrist like it was going to bite me, in alarm I moved my wrist as I thought no. The head broke off the body, but a know a snake can still be poisonous even when you cut off the head. So I blew the soap away from me as it dissolved away. I started to worry, but when I looked in front of me, there in the middle, plain as sight, soap in the shape of a heart. Tears of joy collected in my eyes. And I knew. God will protect me, God loves me, and I love him. Thank you for always protecting me even when I don’t think I deserve it. When I feel like a retch and I do not even deserve to love myself. But even when I don’t love me, you still do.
Cut off the serpent of the devil, overcome the powers of evil. You will find everlasting love from Jesus Christ, our protector and savior.
I then began to scrub myself clean and I promised to god that I will fight for salvation. That I will be a better person.
krispykay:
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parydise:
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myintriguing:
My friends decided to take a lovely pic for the Westboro Baptist Church. They’re not gay but they support gay rights
This is the most gangsta shit I have ever seen on tumblr
Not even a little bit sorry for posting color to my uncolored blog. This is amazing.
you are a saint ^
omfg this is perfect
GOD BLESS
(via just-the-way-you-arent)
skeleton-legs:
It is estimated that 10% of young people struggle with self harm. Imagine that. In a classroom of 30 pupils, 3 will be hiding their cuts and scars. It’s not a little phase; it’s a serious and potentially dangerous coping strategy. Spread the word, raise awareness, reach out, hang in there.
(via just-the-way-you-arent)
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skrills3x:
She is 6 years old.
Most of you wont reblog this, but this girl is beautiful in every way.
I hope she gets better soon.
I’m not just saying this because she is sick but I really think she is pretty.
^ she is really pretty, she is also beautiful.
(Source: confused-t33n, via just-the-way-you-arent)
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