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I do not truly hate anyone. I may say I do but I think its impossible for me to hate. I am true in my statement when I say I want to be friends/ I am your friend. I have been so busy this semester. I support all and any of my friends relationships at this very moment because I know they are all happy together which makes me happy. I am also now ready for a relationship- I am in a very good place, but it’s god decision and if he chooses for me to be single, I am also content. I am not forcing, but allowing happiness and life in.
Yesterday was my last group it was bitter sweet and there are still a lot of challenges I need to go through- family. I loved/ blessed to have met all the people I have met in my group. I hope to keep in touch with you guys!

Blog blog blog

Well I haven’t blogged lately.
It’s interesting because the reason I think I don’t is because I don’t need the “therapy” anymore. When I started my tumblr and I tumbled was because I felt torn apart. I couldn’t think straight. Writing my “prose” down helped but didn’t change that I hurt a lot about it, that I still loved him even how badly the situation was.
Now I’m better and there are no hard feelings from me to you, I believe you are happier.
But it sucks to know that I still think about you… Even after all the shit you put me through.
Sometimes i keep wishing I’ll find someone else to make me fully forget, but I honestly don’t want anyone.
Today I read deadoldlove- when I started following this blog, it was when everything was fresh and the association is still there. I just plowed through pages of it and shit, it’s depressing.
Then it makes me wonder, what is wrong with me? What is it? I can’t figure it out and it’s annoying- I’m obviously not good enough for anyone. But then again I am so uninterested in everyone. I’ve become just another person whose lives I thought were nerdy and boring, those “A sexuals” who will never know love nor try for. I am now an A sexual.

“you’re pretty but I don’t like you.” ” you’re the most interesting person I have met in a long time but, I don’t have feelings for you.” *guy hardcore flirts with me, but has kinda a thing with another girl*
It’s not that I want a boyfriend or anything-I want someone to be like, you, your good enough for me. Sigh
I knew i ask too much.

I’m also really tired as well today therefore I’m feeling depressed therefore I’m blogging…

It’s funny how different I was just a year ago. I was soo tired, but I was so happy. Now I’m just tired. Also I had a million guys chasing me and I was like eh, whatever- now, none.
I know I joke about being forever alone but I know for sure now, I am.
Yep.

• Me: Hey, I just met you
• Me: And this is crazy
• Me: But I've got Alzheimers
• Me: Hey, I just met you

Alone

This word is Er was the worst thing. I would be like oh no, I’m alone or forever alone…
But it’s funny, because without realizing it, it honestly what I have been fighting for this whole semester, my me time, all about me.
So as to rather searching for my other, I am very content with alone. :)

Hmm that’s true

(Source: anditslove, via sweetchildofdixie)

Maybe if I was pretty people would like me.

I feel ya… Im the “most interesting” but not the girl anyone wants.

(Source: sk4ting)

...aaaand this is why Romeo & Juliet's not my fave

• romeo: hey i just met you.
• romeo: and this is crazy.
• romeo: but i saw you at your dad's party that i wasn't supposed to attend and i thought you were pretty cute so i followed you and we kissed but then your nanny called you away and i found out you were a capulet and got bummed so i sneaked into your back yard in the middle of the night and climbed your balcony uninvited to profess my undying love after an hour even though i wanted to bone rosaline like two scenes ago.
• romeo: so marry me maybe.